I love him because…

He’s on my mind when I am in the presence of beauty and all living things.

Today is April 11th, the Full Moon is a little over a week away. I am seeing signs of his presence everywhere I go and even in my dreams. It was so real, so passionate, and so magical. I feel him so close, yet so far. Oh how much I miss him, his energy, his divine masculine existence that no other man I know has and no other man can compare. Even though we are not together in the physical, I feel it deep down in my heart that we are meant to be together and will be together when GOD has decided so. There was a reason for our separation. We each have to part ways so that we can heal, learn, and grow within ourselves.

I had a little bit of an emotional start to my day this morning and a conversation with a very dear and wise Goddess adviser in my life uplifted me, gave me hope and strength, and she reminded me of this beautiful love poem written by Elizabeth Barrett Browning to her husband, Robert Browning during the Victorian Era in which I have by my bedside table. The verses in bold are of significance to he and I.

I Love You

I love you not only for what you are
but for what I am when I’m with you.

I love you not only for what you have
made of yourself but what you are making
of me;

I love you for putting your hand into my
heaped up heart and passing over all the 
foolish weak things you can’t help dimly
seeing there, and drawing out in the light 
all the beautiful belongings that no one 
else had looked quite far enough to find;

I love you because you are helping me to
make of the lumber of my life not a tavern
but a temple,
out of the work of my every day
life not a reproach but a song.

I love you because you have done more than
any creed could have done to make me good
and more than any fate could have done to
make me happy;

You have done it without a touch, without 
a word, without a sigh;

You have done it by being yourself.
Perhaps that is what being a friend means,
after all.

And he has done it without much effort and by simply being him.

This is more than just a friendship. It is a spiritual bond, a deep soul-connection, a pure and eternal sacred love that no other can ever replace. I love him because he brings out the Goddess in me, the Goddess that I was meant to be. I love him because he is my divine masculine match. And I love him because he is LOVE in a man.

Thanks to my long time fan and photographer Charles Martin for always capturing the best of my Fashion creations and for allowing my vulnerable side to reveal through your lenses.




Love is all I have…

Happy Sunday! Can you believe the year is almost over? Many people speak of love and how much they love another, but how many are actually living the true meaning of love?  Sunday is my favorite day, especially when it … Continue reading

Love House Rules

 

Most men are not even comfortable enough in their own masculinity to wear jewelry. This one believes you need to be balanced in both your male and female energy to be powerful.

It’s not very often that a very manly, confident, and fearless titan comes into my life who inspires my creativity and awakens my soul. And he did exactly those things! My life is no longer the same since my short exchanges with him. Even though our time together was brief because I was leaving for my annual Goddess retreat in the Mediterranean, but every moment I spent with him was well worth it! He challenged me in mind, body, and spirit, especially from a very male perspective. Each time together with him was full of learning and discovering magical and unexpected life surprises. It was fun, creative, spiritually uplifting and thought-provoking. I felt safe, respected, understood, and protected when he was with me. We read each other’s minds on so many levels. He was a fast learner and could keep up with me and adapt to unexpected changes so effortlessly. Perhaps it was because of his athletic background or perhaps God created a real man in him to set an example for all the other men to follow? I don’t know and I will not guess, but all I can say is that it felt like I was with my masculine self.

He taught me so many life lessons without even knowing it. I do believe that he was an angel sent from heaven to help heal me of my emotional wounds, know my self-worth, and to never again settle for any man who is less than my emotional, physical, intellectual, and spiritual equal. He forced me to go within and look at all of the men in my life through a sharper lens, from family members to friends and lovers. What I discovered is that most of the men in my life currently are simply not strong enough for me emotionally and perhaps even physically, with one or two exceptions. 🙂

Looking back, I would often lower my vibration, tone down my passionate nature and creative self-expression just to match the men I was with. But no more, I assure you. I am so clear of the man I want to be with in the future, and the men I want to surround myself with in the now. No more conservative and uptight ones who on the outside appear strong, yet are so emotionally weak and insecure on the inside that I am left feeling unsafe and unprotected when I am with them. Who is to blame for that but my very own self? I can’t believe it took me 46 years to figure this out (late bloomer, I guess…)

Tonight as I was doing my domesticated goddess arts at home, he came into my mind and it inspired me to polish and refine my tu-anh Love House Rules below for all those who are fortunate enough to be invited over. Please feel free to contribute to my list. I hope wherever this special manliness of a soul and God’s gift to women is that he knows I appreciate and respect him deeply. I am forever grateful to him for transforming my life and awakening my divine feminine with his existence. I am sending love and light his way. I will pray for him to always be his best and most powerful self as our world needs his masculine strength! Stay tuned for more inspirational posts to come inspired by my handsome manly Greek Titan teacher and healer!

P.S. Some of you may be thinking perhaps he and I were intimately or romantically involved. The answer is no. He was my titan muse, my angel protector, my inner strength, and my soul teacher! Perhaps one day…time will tell (smiles)