My Old Soul and Its Quest for Love

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I am really not bothered by my high expectations in others, especially in my future forever “til death do us part” partner in crime and lover. You have to be a very self-aware and secure man in your own confident Titan skin to handle a modern day goddess like moi.  Since my divorce four years ago, I have been in a love affair with myself and having a lot of fun enjoying my own company and exploring a life full of freedom and creative self-expression.I have been told that I am too “picky,” and that my expectations are too high. But the truth is, I am an old soul and I have a big mission to accomplish in this lifetime that I cannot afford to lose time over distractions that do not serve my purpose. For years, my love life has been 2nd priority to my work of bringing beauty, sensuality and light to others.  Don’t get me wrong: if miraculously, I happen to stumble upon a handsome, gallant and honest titan who shares the same values, dreams and life’s aspirations as me, I will ultimately follow the guidance of my heart. But until then, if it takes forever, I will wait for that perfect true SOUL LOVE instead of settling for someone that is just “Good enough”.I have been wanting to write a post about old souls and true love for a very long time, but this article below was perfectly written for me and for many old souls out there who may be somewhat confused or thinking that something is wrong with them. I want to share this with you that a dear goddess friend sent me a few weeks ago. After reading it, I felt like Brianna Wiest, the author, was thinking of me when she wrote this. I will elaborate on this article with more detailed explanation later, but in the meantime, what do you think?

12 Reasons Why Old Souls Have Such A Hard Time Finding Love

1. They have a strong sense of identity. They know who they are, which means they also know – specifically – what they do and do not want in a partner, what works and what doesn’t. While this is fantastic in terms of being able to choose wisely, it ultimately diminishes their pool of prospects pretty significantly.

2. Left unchecked, their hyper-intuitiveness can wreck relationships. Often prone to overthinking because of how deeply sensitive they are, their capacity to worry and make assumptions can break relationships that don’t have a perfectly strong foundation.

3. Many are in the throes of twin flame relationshipsThey’re attached or are with people who are not their “forever” people, rather, intense connections they’re meant to learn, and rapidly expand, from.

4. They often have a greater purpose that must be attended to first – one that love would distract them from. They usually have to accomplish quite a bit on their own before they find love – this is because old souls love deeply, and completely. To be given love too soon would keep them from the other important things they are here to do.

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5. They will not settle for anything less than soulmate love.They require a lot more than just a surface-level, “average” relationship. They absolutely will not settle, and sometimes, that means biting the bullet and being alone for longer than what’s “average” as well.

6. While many people can bring them passion, few can bring compatibility. Because they feel so deeply and others find them so fascinating, it’s easy for them to find infatuation, but to be with someone who is truly their best friend, deepest confidant *and* lover is a challenge.

7. They’re less inclined to go out and meet people in modern ways. Even if they have nothing against online dating, it doesn’t always come naturally for them, nor does finding a random hookup at a bar or being set up blindly seem appealing.

8. They’re natural healers, and often attract people who need help, not love. And that attraction is reciprocated. There’s almost nothing that feels better to an old soul than being able to help someone who truly needs it. However, at some point in time, it’s crucial for them to realize that they have to choose a partner, not a student, or a charity case.

9. They dislike the “game.” Dating is inherently exhausting to an older-spirited person. Feigning disinterest for the sake of looking “cool” or knowing which faux pas other people find off-putting (how long after the first date do you text again?) isn’t instinctive to them, and can stress them out more than they ever find it “fun.”

10. Their standards are sky-high. They expect a lot from themselves, so likewise, they expect a lot from their partners. While this is a great thing, it’s another quality that has to be kept in check: it’s more important to be able to accept the qualities that aren’t deal-breakers than it is to just write a person off because they’re imperfect.

When I am alone is when my dreams are manifesting.

11. They have baggage.People who developed their inner selves quickly did so for a reason: they had to cope, they had to grow, or they had to learn from some challenging experiences that life set up for them. While this is a great thing on its own, unresolved issues can often re-manifest in close relationships.

12. They feel fear as intensely as they feel love.The degree to which they love something is proportionate to how much they fear losing it, or not being “good enough” for it. They don’t just love intensely, they feel everything else intensely, too, and sometimes, that gets in the way of the really good things in front of them.

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21 Questions to Ask About Your Relationship

Motivational image from my father.

Thich Nhat Hanh, my spiritual mentor has given me so much knowledge and wisdom on love and self- enlightenment that I would like to share with you.  The questions below which I took from his book, How to Love, will give you a better understanding of the relationship with the one you love, or with the one whom you believe you once loved. I am hoping that you will take the time to do this short exercise and experience its healing effect. These questions not only will help you in your existing relationship, but also in the strained ones. If you need to make a decision on whether or not to release a relationship that has not fulfilled you emotionally and spiritually, these questions will definitely open your mind to what is true for you and help you find the answer to love.

I, too have a confession to make: I once had a soulmate relationship with an intelligent, kind, handsome, and very chivalrous titan that dragged on and off for over 15 years and that was not good for my emotional well-being. Even though he is no longer in my life, my heart was wishy-washy about letting thoughts of him go. I kept imagining what it would be like if miraculously, he were to change and open his heart to me and allow his vulnerable side to be revealed. I never had the chance to know him deeply and truly. Finally, I have decided to do this heartfelt exercise below just to experience release and closure.  To my surprise, I was able to release him from my heart and healed my soul.  I am complete with this relationship.  I invite you to try answering these questions and experience it for yourself…

20 Questions for Looking into your Relationship – by Thich Nhat Hanh

  1. Are you in love? Yes, I think so.
  2. Are you still in love? Yes, I think so.
  3. Do you want to reconnect with the person who used to be the one you love? I am not really sure.
  4. Do you think that this person is happy? No, I don’t think so.
  5. Do you have the time for each other? I can make time for him, but I cannot answer for him.
  6. Have you been able to preserve your true presence for yourself and for the other person? Yes of course, but I don’t always feel that he is present for me.
  7. Are you capable of offering him or her freshness every day? Of course I am because routine bores me and I like exploring and trying new things.
  8. Do you know how to handle the suffering in yourself? Yes I do, but when it comes to Love, I am not so certain that I have mastered this area.
  9. Are you able to help handle the suffering in the other person? Yes, I believe I am able to do so…but the one I love has never showed his true suffering to me.
  10. Do you understand the roots of your own suffering? Yes I do.
  11. Are you able to understand the suffering in the other person? I have yet to experience any true suffering in him.
  12. Do you have the capacity to help the other person suffer less? Yes I do if he allows me to.
  13. Have you learned the way to calm down your painful feelings and emotions? Yes, I have truly.
  14. Do you have the time to listen to yourself and your deepest desire? Yes I do make the time to listen to myself, but as for my deepest desire related to love, I have not truly made the time.
  15. Do you have the time to listen to him or her and to help him or her suffer less? Yes I can make the time but I haven’t been given the opportunity to know what the suffering is.
  16. Are you capable of creating a feeling of joy for yourself? Yes absolutely, it’s my favorite thing to do.
  17. Are you capable of helping the other person to create a feeling of joy? Yes I am confident I can do that if he gives me a chance to do so. 
  18. Do you feel you have a clear spiritual path? Yes, wholeheartedly.
  19. Do you have the feeling of peace and contentment within yourself? Yes!
  20. Do you know how to nourish your love every day? Oh my Goddess, Yes!

How to Love is my very favorite book and I truly believe that every goddess and titan needs to have it in their personal library collection and read it often. Try to answer these questions for yourself and allow your heart to truly awaken and feel the love that is right for you. Remember to always be truthful with what is in your heart. If you are up for it, answer my question below after you have finished the 20 questions above.

  1. Can you see yourself being with this person for the rest of your life? No, because I do not believe that I can truly be my passionate, creative, wildly-mad-about-life goddess self! So you can imagine that this question obviously helped me to move on and release him from my life.

So there you have it. I am healed from this emotionally unfulfilling relationship. And please don’t even try to entertain the thought of who this titan could possibly be because that is for me to know and for you to always wonder about…. 🙂 xo

This love is real and long-lasting!

My 4th Birthday and Anniversary!

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Dearest readers,

Today marks 4 years exactly since I published my first blog post. I am so grateful to all of you for your ongoing love and support – without you following me on my God-protected, angel-covered path, it certainly would not have been so magical. Nothing brings me more joy than hearing from you about how reading my posts and following my journey have transformed and inspired your life for the better.

I love how my audience comes back to me and shares how much happier and alive their longtime marriages have become; how much more productive and energized they are at work because of open and honest communication; how much more fun they are having in their lives by just appreciating the simple little things; how candlelight and essential oils bath experiences have melted away their tensions, helping them to release their fears; how meditation has made them more aware and more present to those they love; how keeping a gratitude journal has healed their souls and turned them into more vibrant and joyful people; how clean eating has done wonders for their bodies and their health; how travel experiences have enriched their lives; how they have discovered their inner truths…and how now every second alive is a fantastic and purposeful adventure!

I want my readers to desire and have a passion for life and its beauty the way that I do: to stop and smell the fragrant blossoming flowers, to lay on the lush green grass enjoying the sunshine, watching the birds fly with their sweet chirping songs, to take your nature healing walks and stop along the way observing the busy bees at work and the butterflies flirting their ways around the trees. When you tell me how incorporating spontaneity, dancing, writing, reading, prayers and meditation, therapeutic chakra balancing walks, playful time with children and animals have awakened your heart and soul in enchanting ways which you cannot even explain – well, that is when I know that my divine mission and purpose are being accomplished.

I am a big fan of self-improvement and self-healing.  And reading positive, inspirational books and listening to beautiful music cure so many of my stresses and worries. What excites me is when you share how having a passionate love affair with yourself has made a difference in all of your relationships, and you no longer play the blame or shame game. That is exactly what I would like to hear. And sometimes, you feel like you are living in a dream. But my dearest, I am hear to tell you that self-love is so powerful and the best gift you can ever give to yourself and to this negativity-filled world. Watch how your life will indeed become a dream come true! It is when we learn to take care of our minds, our bodies, our souls, confront our fears, accept what we cannot change or possess, and live in harmony with nature that we merge and become one spirit with God.  When we understand that God and the angels are always around to protect and shine their light on us, and that life has so many beautiful reasons to be happy, when we practice forgiveness and move forward in love with a spirit of generosity, compassion and gratitude, then we are truly living life to its fullest!

My dear readers, I am so happy to see that for the past 4 years, you have followed this journey with me and that little by little, it has transformed your lives. Thank you for continuing to share with me. For 4 years, I have shared with you my secrets, my light, my dreams, my sorrows, my inner darkness, my passions, and my goddess love with an open heart and mind, wishing you all to rise to your fullest potential and highest selves.

When I think about all the blogs I have written – open love letters describing my passions, experiences, my guidance, my curiosities, even my fears and sadness – I gush in delight because I see how far I have come, where I have been and how much more I want to explore and learn in this life. I am a creative enthusiast at heart and I am inviting you, if you are not already there, to embrace a relationship with your creative side. Sing, paint, draw, write, dance, cook, design, play an instrument, practice photography, and whatever else that brings pleasure to you. Get ready to experience the magic behind smiling and how much more meaningful and fulfilling your life will truly become.

When we spend our lives celebrating all the “little things,” our wounds will heal themselves, that spark in our eyes will shine through, and our lives will become more balanced and harmonious. I am dedicated and forever committed to providing you with the heavenly ingredients of attaining a life of love, beauty, grace, and happiness, which – as has been proven over and over again – has very little to do with how much money or material things we have and much more to do with living a peaceful and purposeful life.  I have gained this fascinating knowledge since childhood about how to live joyfully with nothing or with very little, and yet feel so rich, enlightened, happy, alive and blessed. Living our truth and spreading our love and light without fear are far more important than acquiring material wealth. This theme is repeated throughout my blogs and I hope to instill in you the willpower and zeal to achieve happiness and enlightenment.

This blog for me has been a remarkable testimony of self-love, self-expression, self-discovery, healing, growth, illumination, empowerment, resiliency, and welcoming of my goddess power from within to emerge and give rebirth to my life… one loving moment at a time. I have enjoyed giving you a glimpse into my whimsical world full of wonders and surprises, sharing my tips for peaceful, positive, and productive living, while happily exposing you to what romances me and to, of course, the most powerful force of all: Self-Love.

These past 4 years, I have read every single email, answered every question, and responded to all your comments, including those on my social media, with keen attention and a very open mind and heart because I learn so much from all of you and am wholeheartedly inspired by you. I appreciate all my intelligent, sophisticated, cultured, beautiful followers from all over the world, many of whom have now become kindred spirits and modern-day angelic presences in my life.

To all of you, I and Nini Love thank you from the bottom of our hearts and wish for you the greatest of love and happiness forevermore. Now at 45 and born again, I am so excited to share the beginning of my Queen-Goddess, divinely guided life with you. I invite you to stay with me during this expedition of unconditional love, beauty, self-discovery and celebration of life. The goddess within has fully risen, I am ecstatic to see what is next to come in this chapter of life and of course, will be sharing everything with you along this exquisite and awakening journey.

Thank you again for your support. Let us spread the power and joy together!

Love Always,

tu-anh

Delos Island

La Casa Que Canta

Can you see the heart floating?

Greek Salad is my favorite

Nini loves to be around me when I am working.