Today is April 11th, the Full Moon is a little over a week away. I am seeing signs of his presence everywhere I go and even in my dreams. It was so real, so passionate, and so magical. I feel him so close, yet so far. Oh how much I miss him, his energy, his divine masculine existence that no other man I know has and no other man can compare. Even though we are not together in the physical, I feel it deep down in my heart that we are meant to be together and will be together when GOD has decided so. There was a reason for our separation. We each have to part ways so that we can heal, learn, and grow within ourselves.
I had a little bit of an emotional start to my day this morning and a conversation with a very dear and wise Goddess adviser in my life uplifted me, gave me hope and strength, and she reminded me of this beautiful love poem written by Elizabeth Barrett Browning to her husband, Robert Browning during the Victorian Era in which I have by my bedside table. The verses in bold are of significance to he and I.
I Love You
I love you not only for what you are
but for what I am when I’m with you.
I love you not only for what you have
made of yourself but what you are making
I love you for putting your hand into my
heaped up heart and passing over all the
foolish weak things you can’t help dimly
seeing there, and drawing out in the light
all the beautiful belongings that no one
else had looked quite far enough to find;
I love you because you are helping me to
make of the lumber of my life not a tavern
but a temple, out of the work of my every day
life not a reproach but a song.
I love you because you have done more than
any creed could have done to make me good
and more than any fate could have done to
make me happy;
You have done it without a touch, without
a word, without a sigh;
You have done it by being yourself.
Perhaps that is what being a friend means,
And he has done it without much effort and by simply being him.
This is more than just a friendship. It is a spiritual bond, a deep soul-connection, a pure and eternal sacred love that no other can ever replace. I love him because he brings out the Goddess in me, the Goddess that I was meant to be. I love him because he is my divine masculine match. And I love him because he is LOVE in a man.